Hey Guys, so, long time, no post, and I am so so so sorry that I have left you for so long, it was no intentional, but then again that makes it worse. I have a good excuse, for the fact that I have gone quite of track recently, but now I think I am just digging myself a deeper hole, as the saying goes, so I will stop making excuses for myself, for there is no real excuse for why anyone would leave their readers for such a long amount of time. I am getting in the writing zone, and seeing as you all are quite a quiet audience usually, I know I can make this long, the kind of post you read on the way to work on a Monday morning, something to wake you up and smile, for isn’t that why I write? Isn’t that why anyone would write, to stimulate emotions or thoughts in a reader? Anyway, getting off track here, but lets get onto the main subject, of which there is none, seeing as, despite all of the great ideas I had planned for you for this post, I can still not think of one that sounds like its coming from me, so today I am going to write as if I am myself, because I don’t need to be a professional psychologist to know that I am myself, as much as I sometimes forget that I can be myself, writing for you, here on this blog, I am always myself, and I think the reason I hadn’t posted in a long time, is because I was so focused on pleasing the whole world with my words, and I forgot the important thing is to make myself happy, and then the people who actually do read what I write, because there is a reason people read what they read, because they like it. So I am being myself now, I’m back to being myself, which also means, I’m back to writing on here every chance I get, I don’t feel the need to try making a regular schedule, because that idea just doesn’t feel like me, if you didn’t know I’m very disorganized in some aspects.
So, to our subject today. Which I haven’t even thought of, so maybe we can continue the thoughts of being ourselves then. I think, that all people my age have the same problem as me, and I do believe in God, so if any of you readers don’t I think maybe if you could bear with me for this post, but anyway, staying on track for once, I was talking about people our age. I think that we all have a problem with listening to what people advise us, like, a serious rebellious problem, and actually, it’s not even a problem, it’s more like a ‘streak’ of rebelliousness in the generation. Adults tell us things over and over, and we either think, we will never do that, or want to do it even more. That is just the stigma. I know that for any teenager reading this, they would call me a ‘Know-it-all’ or say that I am putting myself above them ‘acting’ wise, even if they deny it, I know and have experienced this before, and I can understand why. There is a big difference between being told what’s not good to do by an adult, and whats not good to do by a fellow teenager. It causes arguments, big ones, because we are scared of listening and sticking out as the one that listens, so we outgo ourselves to do the opposite, and we get into trouble, and this is where I think God comes in for me. I get myself into a lot of sticky situations, and I have gotten myself into another one recently, hence my absence. I never get into trouble too deeply before my mum finds out, and yes at first I get into trouble, but later on, I realize and ask myself, how deep would I have gotten myself in by now if she hadn’t found out? and that is when I realize how much God protects me from getting into too much trouble.
It’s hard to live in this modern world, no matter what adults may think, it is much harder than you can know, and we will all say its easy, but really, it’s not. It is so hard to be yourself and stay out of your shell, for a teenage girl, in this day and age, we are warn so much about wandering around alone in the dark, displaying too much of ourselves on the internet, being private, and it really builds up pressure inside you. Not all teenagers are like this, I know, but most of us are. We start thinking because we have been warned about media’s pressure we won’t give into it, but we don’t even know how silent it is. A girl can never be herself in this world, and in a boys world it is also getting worse. A friend of mine went to a boarding school, and because he preferred more ‘feminine’ sports, and subjects, he got bullied, very very badly. This is the stereotypical world we live in, because this generation chooses to learn the hard way, we are growing up in a world that is falling apart, we were born around years that have been filled with war, murder and disruption, take for an example, the increased rate in rape over the past few years, the generation that will be shaped by this will be ours, we are either tortured by our own our whole childhood, r we join those who are learning the hard way. I have picked the hard way every time I choose to do something different, and I know I will keep doing this, because, I, like many others, do not listen well. Yes I learn my lessons earlier, which is my chance to try and show that it’s true what adults try and teach us, but I can not be listened too. I know if I hadn’t been caught my friends would have taken full credit for being the reason why I had ‘achieved’ this, but as soon as I was caught, they seemed to only blame it on me, refusing to blame the pressure put on me on society either. This isn’t the ideal way to live life, but it’s the only way we know. I think that both adults and teens are both right and wrong. Adults are wrong in the way they try to teach us these lessons, because we need more than just trying to cram advice in our minds, partly due to the fact that we have to cram our minds with the exams you also make us do, however, they are right in the way that they do want us to do well, and they want us to feel comfortable with ourselves. Teens are wrong in the way they are so stubborn to just listen to what we are told. We are right in the way that when we say we can’t simple just be ourselves for the whole world to see, because there will always be a part of us the world does not want or like, both teens and adults alike, one tries to pull the best of you out, the other pulls the worst, which is which is for you to decide, for both teens and adults do both. It is hard to speak your mind in this world, because someone will always judge you, and judgment hurts, much more than you can understand, for we have so many expectations in life, for example, ‘You can be whatever you wish to be, except maybe now a bin-man because that’s not nice’ or ‘ Do what you want, just do not talk to so-and-so’ this is the world today, always terms and conditions, because that is what our lives have become, anyway, back on track. Basically, because I think I have gone way, way longer than I thought I would, I will conclude all of this, very changeable subject, just by saying, even though you might find it hard to be yourself for other people, even if you do try to be yourself and it doesn’t work with other people, then they don’t deserve the real you, but before you start thinking I’m telling you to hide yourself, keep it there, don’t forget who you are inside, because that is when you truly lose yourself to the commercial world, if you let your true self be lost, then you have let media achieve it’s goal, to change people. So these are the words I will leave you with today. Have a great day, and i hope this isn’t too serious for a Monday morning. And because I am very very happy to say that I think I have almost reached 1500 words, so goodbye for now and have a very good night/Monday